tiRed le.toDae,indeed hAd a tiRind dAy..nOt onLy tiRing,tO tHe bOdy aS welL...2Dae,inSteAd oF haVing drIll,wE hAd tO cleAn uP tHe Guides/Scouts CCA rOom..initiAlly,wE jUX neEd tO clEan oUr paRt.. bUt,iN tHe eNd,helPed tHe scouts abit..bY stAcking uP theIr thiNgs. aT 1st,I wAs heLpin 2 taKe oUt gadeTs poLes,n tIe thEm toGether whiLe tHe otHer senIors hElp tO clEan uP tHe cupBoards.Den,1 oF mY senIor aSked mE tO heLp hEr wIf tHe carRyings..maYbe I lOok strOng enouGh to caRry heaVy thIngs,oR idLe enOugh..
fiRst,I caRried tHe monItor,PC bY myseLf tO tHE trOlley..[wOw..I'm quiTe strOng afTerall..]
dEn begAn cleaRin theIr thinGs,liKe stacKin thOse daMn heaVy basKets,thrOwin awAy tHe liTters..Haha..BeLieve iT oR nOt, onCe a mesSy meSs couLd bE tidy n A biT neAt jUx bY mE n My senIor..Wow.. suddEnly feeLing so accOmplished..[oSo,thIs doEs nOt apPly tO tHe sweEping N moPing oF tHe flOor..I'm jUx iN chaRge oF maNual labOur..]
dEn quEstion stArted tO aRise..
The scouts rely on their ropes very much..U put the ropes at there,[kinda inaccessible as heavy things were blocking it's path] how are they going to take it?
Me:Ai ya,they can de la..They are guys wat..So they jux need to climb up at the baskets n take..Afterall,they are scouts wat... Oso, they can take from der ma..[a few baskets filled wif ropes are scattered around..So LUCKILY 1 basket was reachable..Not countin those heavy pails stacking on top of it..]
My back aches..It aches as whenever I moved an inch.. Not countin those blows from the previous daes,yet,todae,it worsened it.. Not counting blows n the manual labours..
Well,I guess I had to go n exercise n suceed in my diet soon.. They said I grown fatter le..[IMPOSSIBLE!! I had attended the tough NDP] [maYbe iS tHe fOod bA...]
Okay..Got to diet le..But,it seems so unsuccessful..Dun qi nei! Jia you!Oh ya...Oso,I had decided sumthing le.. I wanna scored well for my exams this year,n get into the TOP 10 of the whole ranking.. It is because,if I ever get the scholarship money,I think I can use it on my teeth..Really,I sumtimes hate my teeth.Others?Surely hated it more den me..It's the stupid teeth gap fault.
So people,if u all r going to "mock" me 4 being a Guai Kia, jux go ahead n do it.. Though it sounds an "insult" or wateva to me,I cant help it..
Actually,I feel very upset from my teeths.It's a consistent personal attack on me..But I cant help it.They dun even understand.If they had understand,I may not be in such a misery by now.If they understand,they could let me do sumthing to my teeth.If they had understand,den they wont use it on a personal attack on me.In the nutshell,nobody understand.They did not noe how it feels when one person had one.That's why,they nvr thot abt it.
Recently went on playin the The Teletubbies Killing. They are such idiots,kinda disgusting when they broadcast the stupid voices.Now,I keep wondering why I like it them when I was young.But now,nah..I dun,even though I was called by my senior.. -_-lll
Tmr having the last NDP Preview..Wat could I say?The last Preview I'm performin in the NDP 2007..N the next week, it would be the formal one..With the real President,PM n other ministers... Sometimes,I like the ndp trainings at school.. But after NDP,I dun think I will have any excuses 2 see him.
Actually,I have thot of WHEN my drill was good enough, maybe I'll go try out 4 the uniform groups' parade.. Audience loved the parade..I wann to be like my sister,able to march in the National Day Parade.I think it's suave.Able to do sch proud. Okay.I got to stop thinkin this.I can only think of it when I passed the auditions.I dun noe how the audition works. Ppl sae I siao de..Like this year NDP already very tiring,I still go join 4 wat? Not I nothing to do..Jux wanna do everything I could when I'm still young n full of enthusiam..
I'm a girl.Hard to talk to.WHy?It's like kinda of no topic to talk to is it? But, me,if u start talking to me,I can talk alot..I'm like the engine.Once u start it,it will not stop until the engine burst of heat.Guai kia will alwaes be guai kia ba?PPl surely will sae yes.Who noes? I think guai kia will one dae had the power to change the image if wann to.
Wow..Long post afterall..Haha..
YEAH! JUX FINISH ONE MORE ACTIVITY N WE COULD GET A BRONZE BADGE!! GOOD.. I LONGED TO HAVE A BADGE ON MY UNIFORM...

Well. jia you to ppl who support me..Love n stay happy to ppl who will alwaes be standing by my side n regard me as their frens.. Jia You to u all!! Muacks.. Hahazx..

----byEe..goTta gO-----
-----frOm a guAi kIa's worLd,poInt of viEws n feElings---
--loNg poSt--
--feEl liKe tyPin moRe..cAn I?---
--sHe trIes aLot.yEt,nO chAnce iS giVen tO hEr.sHe hAd trIed tO exPand heR toPics.hOpe sHe couLd dO iT.jIa yOu..--
-aDd iN-
-sHe'lL tRy tO gT inTerested iN eveRything.-
----byEe..gTg..nId tO slEep.GuaI kIa niD slEep earLy de Ok?-

Things get quite confused lately... Dunnoe... Me? Being a Emo?? Erm.. Quite impossible ba... R u kidding? :)
Helped out at the cool running project... Quite enjoyable.Like real la. The "milo" was great..
U believe it??
Haha.. The "milo" refers to the muddy watery mud... My new shoes totally sank into it.. I nearly cant get it out...
Saw ppl.. They caught me by surprise... They r like me.. Despite wat tiredness they got, they still came.So,wat reason should I hav to sae "no"? wow.. help out at the VIP area.. where I could see the PM very near...But do I look like I care?? nope.. I jux noe : he's a respected person...
Well, the duty was quite slacking.Nah..Didnt serve the PM any drink.. Got Our very own support new water.. The ppl der very "auto" de.. No nid us to serve.. Already put der drinks, yet, they insisted on their own..Like we serve not good like that... Good wat...
Then,saw Mr Zainal ( should be correct spelling ba..) talked a while.. haha.. Not nice at all as ppl keep pullin me... Then, off-duty le.. went to walk walk wif my very own "gang" haha.. Kinda ba..
Got FREE popcorns n candyfloss... Cant believe it!! we jux go der take from the vendors.. N i s naturally jux take.. Haha.. But I didnt take anymore den 1 serving..Take so much 4 wat>? Jux becos it's freee??? Hahaha..I'm not that kind...
Well,later went home wif Bell,n moon.. saw alot of ppl..Roseann,Mei Shuen..Ai yo,didnt saw Caroline or sum more girls..But nvr mind.I still can survive..Even saw them oso talk a bit, den walk away..
Erm..Later both my sis frens' came.. Quite okay..Yeah! MAnaged to PLUCK 3 leaves... Later online a while, talked craps 4 while, de later went to help bake cookies.The Process? Quite enjoyable... ILIKEIT.
I'm really quite happy todae.Can it jux go 4eva? I dun mind the oily floor.Sittin on it..I dun mind..Can we jux laugh all we wan?Talk wateva we wan? I think u wont mind it rite? afterall, u oso talked quite alot..Craps I mean..Okay..U jux wont call my name..Or sae that word. If u can said it to her,why not me?I mean having a not-so-good-looks to u,really matters? I mean, can u jux prove me wrong that U treat girls wif different attitudes.I hope U could prove me wrong.Treat all the girls same.I mean in a friends mode..If in terms to love/like,I hope u wont.

Well,things seem to go quite well 4 todae..Things got in/out of my expectations.. It really surprises me.But a few things quite made me angry.Nah..Dun care..Be happy.Smile. Killa. Wat's it abt?Jux bcos of a too deep-love 4 a girl? Well,dun force things if it turn out ur expectations. Leave it to fate.Why force things if u cant?Haha..Jux feel like talkin sum long-winded theory or wat eva.. I''m naggy. Haha..Wat u expect me to do? If I'm like that?U cant change...
Simple.As it seems to be.Complicated.Might not be wat u think it is. If u believe it,I cant help it. If cant trust,a person cant help it.Wat more could the person sae? Sae abt things that really cant trust? Maybe the person will jux listen n explain abt the misunderstandings.I cant change the views.I noe I dun hav the power to do that.I'm not that great.
Wa..My senior is it live in bungalow ah?? Take so long to hang up the shoes..BUt nvr mind. She likes it.Cant help.Well,I'm now ending my post in order to bug her..It's nice to bug her.. See her irritated facial expression...It's funny..
bYee...
gotTa gO.
[thIngs tO bE baCk norMal soOn.paSt;seEm sO fAr.tO mE.oR "Yume"]

Last week de.$gt to post.:
phew... Finally a time 4 me to relax. The past week was such a busy. Nvr a dae early to go home. [Okay.Will go home early in one of the daes.Hui de]

Hmm.... Wat should I sae?? This wk. I felt so odd. Quiet,noisy,kee siao,depress, happy,disappointed,weird. These was was I felt the whole week. Noisy? Ha.. During the time when I was helpin out at the Arts House ba... Totally behave like a person that my madame dropped her "spects" on me..[ a description]

Why u behave like that??

My senior la...Keep on bullying me...soBb....hahax..Really... "dry spin" my hair..[oie..My short hair is not 4 u to dry spin de hor..Me will revenge de!! :) ]

N oso keep on trippin me....N even talked abt me.. [ Wann me to post the clip here?? Haha...] But luckily, I did revenge it back.. Keep on pissing her off... She la.. Go disturb me when I was sleeping in the bus.. {Hey!! I was damn tired after helping..}

I was being bullied by my senior la.. But it did manage to live the atmosphere around us when we two are together...Though she keep on teasing-bullying me,I still like to bully her back n stick to her. Actually she's really very nice..

Hmm... Me? actually enjoyed pissing her off too... I mean my senior la..

Sch's musical was quite a sucess. I go der slack in the afternoon. Nite den is busy.. Serving the food all these..Did things which I nvr did.. Cleaning up other ppl's food.Wash the cups..Haiz.. Am I supposed to do these?

Yeah.. U had to..Apparently u was the onli one available at that time..Hahax..



Well, let's hope next week or this week is good 4 u n me... I hope.. Using a positive attitude 2 see everything.. The voting date is on Fri. I'm not looking 4ward to it. Not at all.To me,being a student leader doesnt matter.If I got in, I'll take it as a responsibility.If didnt,I think I'll be happier.Afterall,I told myself not to be restricted.This is a unexpected event.

Why the hell so zhuai??? Like I wan talk to. Do u noe that it took me lots of courage to talk?Yet, wat ending did I had?? Was I suppose to recieve it. U so baka. Wat? Fine. Jux to do wat ya u wan. I oso hack care. You r so idiot la. So?? Fine, jux go tell. Wan be her wat-eva not my problem.
HEY...
lets' talk abt recently de ba.. Dun wanna talk abt le. Talk le you ze yang? jux onli can vent it out wat..
Live my life meaningfully, and happily. The motive of my life is "living happily" so.dun talk abt bad things le.
After the incident, I acted normal.In fact,like more relaxed le.At least I could see his true colours.Face up the reality.Haha..N even acted cool.. Like I care huh..
2dae cca had ROH. Felt so odd.1 side, she's my sis. Another side, the ex-Company Leader. She looked she cant bear. But it still hav to go. So odd... i wass thinking :
They sae we all very united. I agree.The senior-junior relationship seem to be very well. Why>?? Cos' it becos the madames..[being ..]dunno how to sae. But it was obvious from the effects of the madames...
Well.Let's jux hope the new could be reasonable ba... Which I think it will.. haha..
fine.Jux lie on der n continue talkin to her.. where u think u r? at home? y ur attitude is so not-same. Fine. Like I wann see u like that.. Go run, run. I wont dodge. I think I'll ba. Depends on my mood ba.. Haha.. Most likely is me dodgin you. But it seems to me that it makes no difference. So saw me or didnt it doesnt matter to u rite? Fine.
It makes me happy that U actually noe me.Yeah. HE KNOWS ME.HE KNOWS MY NAME!! SO HAPPY---- ARRRHHH..
hahaz... Dun talk abt it.Tmr got ndp preview. mY sis r coming. haha..
THINGS TO RMBR/TAKE NOTE: PLS RMBR THE FINALE STEPS.U'RE STANDING ON THE RAMP. SO PPL CAN SEE U , U NOE? HOPES MARIO CAN REVIEW WIF US. argh. being a guai-kia again.
This wk new thing that taken me into surprise or unexpected..
1.Got into the student leader's interview.Which I thot I gt no-chance in. Cos' I was jux tryin out my luck!
2.Stupid incident,
They sae mux go campaigning. CAMPAIGNING?? ME?? NO WAY!!
WHy>cos' u're expected to introduce urself IN FRONT OF THE SCH.
that makes me feel nervous.When I'm so so......
My seniors 2dae jux told me a break-my-dream fact. Fine..huh...Will pungseh ppl de if u bcum SL.. Really they told me de. They sae GG depend on me le. Cos' I'm the only person get in.Well,I got in jux 4 a sec 1 orientation???!!! OK,ok...Jux to "pull" ppl to GG so that our workload will lessen..[esp.useful in CF]Haha.. Jux THINKING onli. Nvr intended to. :)

[原来最孤单的是我还是那么想你]
byEe.. gTg..gO sEe JJ..hahax..

>sHe liKe hEr naMe.eSp.wiF hEr surName bA.

>sHe someTimes coUld kiCk a Fuss iF noOne reaLly underStand hEr.

>sometImes, I mUz sAe,sHe cAn thInk aLot oF thiNgs.
>sHe hAs loTs oF perSona.
>liKe whEn sHe's realLy feEl liKe taLkin,sHe cAn taLk unTil hEr moUth acHes sHe oSo dUn caRe.Or,unTil u complAin it's noiSy,sHe mAy sofTen iT.

>wHen sHe's feEl liKe beIng quIet,sHe cAn bE daMn quiEt.wiLl jUx thInk thiNgs oN hEr oWn,aT a coRner.sHe woNt taLk.jUx aT a sIde.iN a sHort woRd, beIng antI-socIal.

>sHe cAn bE quIte laMe n slAck.alwAes shoWin iT aT hEr cCa.Ha..laMe,iS suRe. bUt slaCk.nOt nOw lE.

>sHe cAn bE daMn hiGh.moStly iN camPfires.hEr hiGh,dUn loOk liKe siAo de. cOs' dEr's a whOle lOt oF hiGh-ers aroUnd hEr toO.So,sHe's nOt alOne. hEr senIors, alwaEs influEncing hEr tO bE. actUally,iT doEs nOt huRt tO bE hiGh. sHe liKes camPfires,soRt oF a beSt sTreSs-reLief tO bE. scOuts aNd guIdes siNgin camPfires soNgs,danCing iN freNship danCE n ruNnin iN a thoUsand-leGged woRm.

>sHe hAs temPer. She haTes cerTain tyPe oF thIngs/actIons.

>sHe's sensItive.

>sHe haTes boRedom n loNeliness.

>sHe hoPes tO leaRn othEr forEign langUages.yeAh.sHe's tryin.Look Out..

>dUn taLk tO hEr aBt wAt laTest brAnd.hEr frEns doEsnt gO 4 thEse.sO, neeDless tO sAy,hEr frEns wOnt tAlk tO hEr aBt iT.

>sHe liKes goIng oUt hEr sIs.sHe cAn bE aS muCh aS coUntry-puMpkin iN frOnt Of hEr sIs.

>loYal supPorter oF JJ. JJ rOx!

>sHe's nOt a teacHer's pEt.seEms tO bE,bUt dId u nOe sHe reAlly haTes iT.

>hU liKe suAn-inG?? cerTainly nOt hEr.

>sHE loNg-wiNded n naGgy. :)

>she hates it when ppl dun believe her.

>sHe cAn bE veRy keE-siAo. y? tRYin tO liGhten tHe atmoSphere ba. :)

>sHe reaLly trIes tO pUt iN lOts oF eFforts sHe dOes oK??(not chou-mei la..)

>sHe woNt foRce thIngs.

>sHe woNt giVe uP easIly.unLess sHe's forCed tO.

>"eveRything mux try le den noe it suits u anot..Mux try everything..Ucan give up only after u really tried." her senior told her de.

>hEr curRent wiSh:tO taLk tO hIm.sHe hoPe sHe couLd dO it b4 thIs yR eNds.
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Lo sien toh,if this speech is very boring.Kum-sa-mi-da if u manage to finish. after all, i wann my blog to be private.Frank .(not Anne Frank hor.. hahaz..)
Byee...
gtg to play games..
joEy...
[hope her current wish to be realised soon.][positive attidude]
[cheer up! ;)]

I really wann to tell this: Can't U get out?? Do U noe U r very irritating?? Dunno rite? Now, I've tell u liao.Jux get out.I wann my life used to be.Reality really hurts. I shouldnt be approaching. I rather live in my own fantasy, I shouldnt be finding the reality. U are so idiot.
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Before blogging this post, lots of things happened.Out of my expectation.Didnt even think abt it. Campfire; nice.Everything is so nice.Except 1 stupid game. That really depress me alot.Why mux that idiot game spoil my whole mood? N oso do some harmful effects on something. HEY!! Do u think I wann it? Why didnt U think in OTHER PPL's shoe??Do U noe that, that time when I was sabo-ed, I really hoped u was der?? Really hoped that U was oso sabo-ed too?? Why didnt u see me rejecting? Why the hell it was so coincidence that u saw ? Do u noe that time I really hoped n pray u was der?? If it was u, I dun mind la. But, it's no use. It's over.I mean, there's no use harbouring over it. Get over!
oK.I wrOte wAt I reaLly waNted tO sAe.It kePt iN mY heArt tOo loNg. finAlly couLd wrIte it.nO moRe knOts 4 mY heaRt lE..
1st dAe oF sCh.quIte oK.bUt afTer sCh.nOt oK aT aLl..
25 juNe:
Felt so depressed.What the hell.I already made the move to call u, yet,u was ignoring me.So wat do u wann?? I really dun understand. Intially, I was totally mad at you.Finally, I had to admit the fact.Was I too rush?Or I really didnt thot of ur feelings?? Fine. Maybe I'm wrong.Lo Sien toh.
Lots oF moVes weRe taKen.It loOks liKe Pinkie toOk iT 4 graNted. oK.gonNa shOw I dUn caRe le. whAt aRe u thiNking??!! I reaLly dUn underStand.fiNe.gEt oN mY liFe.
FriDae, attEnded tHe SDR.quIte succeSsful dE mA.CL praiSed uS thAt wE dId veRy weLl.yeAh! FinaLly eNd oF SDR n oSo reduCin tHe chaNce oF beiNg scOlded.hAhaz..After thAt,attEnded tHe perfoRmance,tHe speEch.. -_-lll >> tHe speEch wAs daMn boRing.yaWned a fEw tiMes aS hAd noBody tO taLked to.Told myself not to look at him even though he was sitting in the row infront of me.But he was at the end.Didnt really saw the whole.Erm.. ear n side view, counted?? The conclusion is, anyway, I did looked at him.Haha..I feel myself damn weird.Say le,dun LOOK at him.I didnt.But I PEEKED. caN?? hahaz.. still, cannot resist the temptation to peek. :p

After SD,went back home to rest.Preparing tO gO tO SYF opening ceromny. Ok. I was feeling odd.But good thing is, it didnt feel the whole way.Haha..Go der beat pom-pom until got hole.Keep blowing.SEE? I so chang qi..(long-winded)...Hahaz.. Saw him!! the 1st time saw him wearin costume.HAha..So gan dong! but, jux onli once.Fine. like this I oso gan yuan.Wait so long jux to see him.. U siao liao ah??
Later,after SYF, went to eat wif Ling Ling.The chicken cutlet.-_-lll not nice at all la!!
Sat,ndp.Damn malu.over-ran.Missed the markings wif Ling Ling.FINALLY saw, went back to dance.Aiya. But not that bad la..So bad,Rather go campfire den ndp. if not cos of u, I should be goin to campfire instead.Fine.Watever.
nOw so feeLin duNno wat.
duN waNn sAe.
Keep iT iN mY heArt.
I'll beliEve.
bYee..