okay, got a new phone & number. But doesnt seems very happy. Cos I didnt wanted to change.. It's due to my parents' strong protest against my high phone bills that they decided to put me on line. Okay well then. But it just happens that I didnt have any phone in mind. So I got this phone, specially for wifi. So i could go online anytime and make my sisters drool over me. :D

While choosing the phone, wow. both my dad and me really became a public nuisance at that shop. Fancy 2 adults quarreling over a dummy phone and exchanging 'words' . Zzzz Ended very unhappily. =.= Ate fishball noodle with vinegar, it's nice! Shannon, finally understand what you meant that!

2nd wife's finger got injured. Here hopes her that her pinky will recover soon. Better recover! I dont like deformed wife!

my hair dropping.. studies, cca! No time for myself! Dad says I got to be more decisive. Cos what i'm suffering is partly becos of my indecisiveness! Okay, gotta be strong and not a weakling anymore. =.=


lastly, I CHANGED MY PHONE NUMBER AGAIN. SENDING A MASS MSG ON 30JAN. IF YOU DID NOT RECIEVE ANY MASS MSG FROM ME, LEAVE A TAG BEHIND! SORRY & THANK YOU FOR YOUR INCONVENIENCE!

well, didnt expect my first post as sixteen to be sad okay. It's just that ....

I've a present I like th MOST this year. Not saying I'm not liking my other presents, but I like this cos this got that sincerity man. It's a joint present by shannon, theresa, felicia and qi rong. it's a bear-gy bank filled with stars. Ordinary? Wait. the stars are alll (most) handwritten with a message inside. All these messages are written to me when I'm feeling sad. So it did help a bit over these 2 days.

Dont really want to fight, neither do I want a cold war. Just felt very stupid. To care a thing that has been happened many times. Just blaming myself why I just cant get used to it. I'm going to graduate this year. Wont happen to me again next year. Well, this incident, I dont believe it's just one way. I know, I got myself to blame. I shouldnt care much. I shouldnt speak a word. I should initiate. I should be more proactive. I know, all these. But I'm not a person that is daring in actions, and I'm not extroverted. But things that happen around me, just encourage me to be in that behavior. Do you think I like being in that mood? I dont, but what can I do. I dont really feel like approaching ppl. Being in silence was enough for me. Further more, being ignored. I'm feeling really very very bad overthese days. It was hard for me. I was trying. But still when I meet, I just cant stop thinking the excuses. Let me lament finish, and I shall stop. Stop saying anything. Stop trying anything. I'll go back to the same old joey. You can continue to ignore me then. That's why, I really hate going to chinese class.



Ranting finish. Came home eat a lot of bananas , thinking I'll be in a better mood. However, laotian dont want me to. Got another pissing call:

Telemarketer, M
Me, J

M; is this (mymom's name) phone?
J: no. you got the wrong number
M: then who are you? what's your name maam
J: i'm her daughter
M: so this your mom's number?
J; no. I'm using.
M (left a while)
M: but this is her number tht is subscribed to her name. so it is her number.
J: ok
M; may i know her number?
J: no. she cant recieve calls at work. I'll pass the msg to her.
M: are you sure you want to do that? it;s okay,I want to speak to her personally.
J: no it's alright. you CAN tell me.

then she began promoting her gift and told me to pass the msg to my mom and immediately slammed that phone down. wth. just becos I'm in bad mood and replying to you retardly does not means you can treat me with rudeness man. so i dont think i want to waste my time telling mom what happened. she'll thank me for it. I've been specially trained to do this sort of stuffs to fend of telemarketers by her.

END.

Isnt feeling that good after ranting either.


Is this my mood to maturity? Becos I really hate to waste my time brooding over a matter. totally sucks for me. May I be happy for the rest of my life.



joey

ENDING MY FIFTEEN-TH YEAR WITH :




STARTING MY SIXTEEN-TH YEAR WITH :




JOEY





I'LL BECOME STRONGER !

Well, this shall be the last post written by me when I'm fifteen.
How great was fifteen? A year of maturity... Got my IC, achieved leadership positions & many many more.

I hope I will change. I hope that everyday I can still see that scenery while walking back home. Sixteen is a year that I'll spend all my energy & attention on studies. It'll be tiring. Spending all my time on studies is because I really dont wanna disappoint people who can believe me that I was not doing my 100%. For this, I thank her. Because she's one who's pushing me, who's letting me to swim up the surface. Although the intention was kind, I cried for no reason. For this, I am really weak.


Okay, what was some fantastic things I've experienced in15? I thought some actually. But when it becomes written, I've forgotten.


My TEN wishes when I'm 16~

5 private , 5 public then.


1. Everyone of my family to be healthy & happy & Get along with friends well

2. LIVE HAPPILY EVERYDAY

3. My predictions/premonition/ sixth instinct to always come accurate/good

4. World no more disasters. (heehee. I'm mature now right. )

5. Get good grades for O levels!






Ohyeah, start my wish again blah blah. Okay, this is the 4th time in my secondary years that I'm saying

BECOMING MATURE

STAYING FIT/SLIM DOWN

Many people will laugh if I said I wanna become more mature. But I think I matured a bit . Okay,call me bhb or what, but who cares?


Okay, today is my dad's birthday. Just called him, insisting today was my birthday instead. Well, guess I made a little mistake. Told him to quickly come back. My birthday wish is my dad to come back and get a job. I really miss being with him. It's okay if there's any financial problems. If we can just get back together as a whole family and face this problems, it'll be better. Being with him is really a privilege. Family time with a father does really makes a difference when you have no males in your family at all. I really miss him & it hurts my heart to see him to be alone in overseas and dangerous too. Oh gosh, stupid tears falling now. END .


JOEY- STILL FIFTEEN

Tablo)
I want to see your tears pour out, pour out without reason
No one knows inside your heart, The glass fragments raging a storm
(Tablo)
The wounds become a sickness, All doors become a wall
I've become an enemy in the mirror, doesn't it hurt?
(Mithra)
[I'll] keep anyone from knowing about you, [I'll] leave the breath to tighten out
I'll force you to choose the end, (aren't I bad?), I'll take away all reason in this world for you to to stand
(Mithra)
Without the choice of the road back, [I guess] you'll walk to the end
Your breath would probably end before my heart
(JiSun)
Wounds... Scars... Tears... Flowing
(When you cry. though you try. say goodbye. the time is tickin′)
(JiSun)
You are wandering through death, (I'll save you...)
(When you cry. though you try. say goodbye. the time is tickin′)
You are the one.
When you're walking in shadows
(When I'm panicking in the shadows, my breath does the same)
you are my savior
I'll reach my hand out to you
(When all the doors in the world close for me, I'll support you with my hand)
you are the one. you are my savior.


ONE by Epik High . Tried to upload the video. But I cant.

TVXQ seems dead to me . I have long lost their news. What are they doing? I really had no idea. Had they been back together? I dont know. WOW. Is this kind of a joke? Losing their whereabouts in January. especiallywhen I'm feeling so sad & despair right now.

flu is coming for me. argh. dbsk is so dead. what am I going to do.

It's quite honourable that you admit knowing my blog. But fine. I wont be a coward & change the link.. See, read at your own choice. There's nothing about it.

2 more days to sch again. Tmr I'll finish up everything if possible. :D

Sorry Kelly, I guess you'll be heartbroken. I never forget the help you once rendered me to. Seriously. However, I'll always associate your name to a loyal and a good friend. Really very sorry about it.


It's okay. I guess school work isnt that important anyway.