today I cried a lot. From morning to afternoon. As if eyes werent mine and tears kept dropping down.

I wanted today to be a day of celebrations; to celebrate my birthday today. I wanted it be nice.
But the next minute, there I am crying, people yelling, people stomping. I'm there yelling back too. wth. Today was meant to be a nice day. a bright sunny day. and there I am yelling with tears falling freely.
I went to the washroom, with the disguise of bathing to cool down. There I am , crying silently as I switch on the tap, covering my mouth with hands in fear that someone would heard me crying.

And there am I, wallowing in self-pity.

And that's how my day sucks like no one ever did.

For people who dont like me, fear not, I'm not living happily everyday. And so, you dont need to be so worried that I am happy like a bird everyday that you would want to come and hurt me. I'm crying badly without your intervention. So, just back out. My emotions are wrecked. Happy?

and that's and IF is there's anyone who wanna do that and I'm not like thinking too much.

sometimes I feel I have a lot of friends that I think I actually owned the world.
and sometimes, I feel that I have none.

Exclusion.

no matter how hard I tried being happy, there's always something to make me sad. No matter how hard I tried to overcome it, the words of a dearest would always kill it.

I should have stopped trying.

I am so freaking miserable that I just had to blame everyone.

my heart literally broke.
but its okay, cos' my heart is made of rubber.
no matter how many times people tug at my heartstrings, it will still bounce back.

WHY EVERYTIME IS LIKE THAT ?
LET ME MEET A BETTER ONE NEXT TIME !!!