♥ 7:30 PM

so dark that i couldnt tell anyone 'hey, i'm so fking stressed up, cheer me up will you?"

so much temptation of shutting myself in a room and immensed myself in the pressure of the room.

she finally said it. said how much talent i've lacked in it. i dont blame her harsh words. I knew it from the start. Classmates asked if i ever wanted to cry, no. it was all truth. how was i supposed to cry over it? and perhaps since that day, dark clouds loomed over me 24/7.

I didnt even eat or drink until my friends pulled me to. I couldnt even feel hungry at all though i know i was becoming tired.

Am i too stubborn to hang on to the impossible?

or am i simply too weak to climb over the obstacles?

for once, I felt great. At least I never gave a shit out of my tears. I guessed if it was the others, they probably cry and make a scene out in class.

I've none and perhaps too unbothered to cry over my school work.

What kind of grades are so fking great when it makes you so unhappy?

♥ 8:13 AM

And when you got the moon, you said you wanted a special moon.

When others got you the ordinary moon, you said nothing at all.

I'm not sure if you're biased or not, but i swear upon my whole being that i gave you every drop of my creative juices to you. I wasn't even copying but you every time claimed/kindly said no copying. bloody hell. there's really nothing original in this world where you can solely claim as yours. all we could do was to create something entirely in your own impression and context.

you was really great.

i think you knew and tried to guide me but well, you were actually putting pressure on me.

But well, I rather you to feedback about it than to ignore it.

You said my friend put in more effort than me. but do you bloody hell knows that i actually just slept for one hour because of it?

there were things you never knew.

I'M SCREWING THIS !

♥ 6:04 AM

那我只要那么一点的诚意，一点的真心。。。

每次付出的诚意，我只想也要回你那真心。。

I don't need a very expensive present;

I just want one that is heartwarming for me forever.

♥ 8:20 AM