haix, today was a nice day. No studies, had pe. But however just one short 2 sentence conversation can just pull me back to reality.
I must admit, I have to accept the fact. why do I hate it so much? I dont know. But anyway, what I know was that I must accept the fact by hook or by crook. I cant be a saint. But my principles and upbringing taught me 'to be nice to everyone no matter you hate or she hate you as much' ya.

At least, I'll be neutral and nice if people doesnt agitate or offend me...

That's what I'll uphold if I ever find myself in some not-very-nice situations.. At least, I'm want Peace ma...


I'm seriously very depressed now. But I cant do anything rite.. I want to go back to Thailand la. Hopes just burst in front of me like that.. -.-

Finally I changed my blogskin.
I am so damned tired. Cant sleep at all. Been crying over my lost book duh. Everytime wake up think abt my book. Duh. Where the hell did it went. I think I cant be normal. Somehow that book became my personal rampage. I'm do devasted now. Unable to think and I cant care anymore. I want my book~ T-T

Yeah! End the camp. Is it the last time are we meeting them? If so, I'm feeling so regretted. But anyway, I must get out of this reality. My head is so in pain. Where hell did it went. I'll find it. It's just a matter of time. OK, right now, I still have alot of stuffs waiting for me to settle. I'm going to repair my computer and FIND MY BOOK! This is getting so idiotic. Whatever. When did I give a damn yeah, I really do. What the hell am I crapping? Ya, I dont know what I'm typing. I just want MY BOOK MY BOOK MY BOOK!!!!!!!!!!

I'm not giving a damn to anything right now except my book. zbloody hell. Whatever.

In the past, I am always giving up chances. Right now, I dont want to do that anymore. I cant give up one thing to focus another. It's so stupid. Opportunities are hard to come by, yet I'm giving up. Is this stupid? I guess, maybe it's time to take the chances and realise what am I really capable. .. anyway, I still want MY BOOK.

testing