Dun always assume I'll hav the same attitude.
Ppl do change & so do I.
I'll show u that I can live better without you.
I'll let u see that I'm not childish or siao as u think.
I'll let u see my serious/cool side...
If all these happen at last yr,maybe I'll be happy..
It seems I'm still greatly affected by these...
I hope u'll have a better impression of me...
I;m so confused & unsure.
Can anybody guide me way out?

Hahax...
Everything I'm now sighin is all bcos of my own deeds...
It would be better if she came.
I will be more happier if the correct she came.
I'll be less troubled if I didnt ask her.
I'll be more happpier if I didnt agreed.
I gotta wear 4 more mths...
Although it seems so glory wearin that, no1 noes there's pain in wearin that,...
Everybody jux think so innocently & simply...
Nobody really believed the real reason y I wear.They jux kept assumin I wear it 4 pretty.
It seems that they dun really understand me... So what if they asked repeatly the truth again?
In the end,they will jux use their own conclusion... & it's such a waste of time ahvin to repeat,..

19 Jan
wake up at 5.45. I didnt even need the alarm clock lor.. I was AWAKE at all time..
Den went for the prata.. Den go Sheng Siong to buy the ingredients to cook..
So,only TWO sec 1s.. Siao... So spendin my saliva is such a WASTE.
YEahs! Same group with blah. Play like siao.. even drop my shoe den skin rubbed off... jux for merely a game...
haix.. played the treasure hunt... DAR.. I was HITED by a ball thrown by 1 stupid guy. Hit so hard for wat? It's jux merely a game.. & y was I bein hit? Lost & was the defender of the central goal. my right cheek so hurts! & is still infront of the guys some more lor. Everyone jux LOOK at ME. ARRH!
maybe Attention Seeker will like that scene.
Or maybe Hua-Chi like that scene. BUt I know is NOT me.
Change group when going for the obstracle course. DEN something embarrasing happen.. STUPID!!! I was blushing so feriously that I feel like digging a hole immediately & hide inside der.. & infront of the GUYS!! LOUDLY!!
Goin 4 every station is like being reminded of a stupid thing.
Hey! That guy gt girlfriend liao.SO can STOP saying me??
He is so OLD.
U jux make me feel like a hua chi. seriously.
Den cook cook.Go for campfire..
Damn it.. They sabo me for the dance competition & the stupid guy mc dun make me lose... Keep insistin me to stay till the final round. I was so look like a DUMB.
Did anybody noe?

<3>
Da Shu better.Better den the OLD guy.
byes.. BEKEES!
joEy.

♥ 12:44 AM

YEAH! Finally I'm back after my camp.. What can I say about?
the 1st dae..
It seem I was proud that day was my bdae.. Sorry.. I'm jux happy abt it..
Listen to music like siao.. Likek havin a concert like that... Den ate the chicken rice... Saw XX eat so slow,laugh her like siao..
Den went to slack.. SLACKING is so MEANINGFUL...
We realised something so FUNNY.
& I laughed to my best,for this is the 1st time I laughed at XX openly.
Went to learn the RBD, what the hell! 1st thought it was childish..
Den finally can learn well.. But still not so sure...
B4 sleepin,they went to tumble me... & gave me a surprise by singin the happy birthdae song... This was so surprise..& my class de..
Slept with blah. Dunno y leh..She gt brin sleepin bag den both of us still sleep in one piece... She scacrifice her own in order to block the light.. But oso no use.. Still cantt sleep...

We both cant sleep... So we played the Hai Dai & BLACK WHITE at midnite..
Mute de... Play until 1AM ... But still I slept a bit.. Mostly is awake..
That's how I spent my birthday.. SO GREAT... Maybe I wanna spent my birthdae like this again.. I like it... Stayin at home doesnt give me the importance..

JANUARY 18 ROCKS>
joEy

It was exhausting..Havin to repeat words again & again.. WHo noes we need those sec 1s... Havin to spent my time on ppl who doesnt hav any interest..& yet,time was soo looong... Nothing to say.It's like beggin them to join.. Hate it la...
Oh great.My birthday going to spent in camp.II think it will be the 1st time spendin outside...I'm not angry,but lookin forward.I gotta prepared myself from being sabo-ed.
Thanks to her,I was awkward.I'm wonderin when & why does she get the idea from? Thanks to her,I've been avoiding him.Thanks to her,I back faced him.Thanks to her,every action of mine was bein agreed to connect with him. & I HATE it. Thanks to her very much. But thanks to her, I finally realised sumthing. All because of THANKS to HER.
JAN ROCKS.
JOEY