FinallY i changed one. But still, my blog acc is spoiled. I cant change the colour all these.

After the campfire, I have no appetite for any special food.. Feeling so hard? Tough? I dont know how to describe.. I love food. But right now, I just cant eat them.. Why? My mouth/brain simply didnt want any special food.. It's tough.. When I wants to vomit.. Maybe I'm too stressed..

Did this campfire turned successful? I hoped. No one can except maybe cheryl, mdm Ng and jie ying ( I rlly thank her alot..) can see how frustrated I was in the back stage.. babbling vulgarities as if it was normal.. And just ignored everyone who was not relevant to me.. Luckily I did this once. If it's gonna be given to me monthly or what, I'll get a heart attack. Felt stressed, as the success of the campfire determines the programme, and I was stubborn to do a splendid one for this year esp, when I have the capability.. This reminds me of my father. I'm really my father's daughter!! (We are biological okay.) Both of us have the same stubborness: unwilling to see a docter until we cant stand it, and is a real mad/workaholic when doing something that we are focused on..

So, I had learnt more about myself. When I'm really focusing on something, dont come and bug me. Mostly likely, the mpost polite treatment you'll get from me is being ignored by me. If I get really mad by your selfish/persistent demands, wait for me to ROAR at you. I did. Shouting at juniors and ignoring wan xin. APOLOGIES to everyone, if you were one of them.
I seem so cold. Yes I do. Last time, my leadership style was to make sure everyone enjoys the fun. But now? I think my leadership style has changed to being Objective. Care about the objectives and results, ignoring the others. I know I really changed. If it was a year ago of me, I would surely cared about the process. But now I cared about the result. Did I really changed?

Stomach feeling hungry, yet I cant do nothing. WHat was my dinner? It was an apple. Pathetic? No, cos right now, I'm dreading bread.. That's the result when you eat 2 breads/day for the whole week.. I'm really mad..

I cant do anything. I dont wanna talk anymore. I'm going to chase the half hour remaining of Garfield le.