I always believed what comes around goes around. Never ever once doubt that.

What's my feeling now?
I could feel low, lonely. However, I knew I wasn't . I was at home. Every time I felt uncomfortable whenever my friends comes.. Home was a place where it hides all my privacy and I would felt kind of invaded.. However I changed. I've learnt to put down my guard. I started to try to be more open up. Still, I'm a person who is quite sensitive about my privacy.. But I've learnt to trust, no matter how I guard, I would still be hurt by the others anyway.

I realised that no matter how many friends you have, in the end, we'll still feel lonely. I think there's none who will not feel lonely for a single second in our life.. But even if I'm lonely, I knew I had friends. Friends who would listen to me whenever I felt like sharing ... I thought it was a bless, at least having someone who listens to you and being there for a support when you needed it.. So thanks, my friends.

Everyone has their plus and minus points, I'm just someone is quite sensitive to my thoughts.. I was glad that from young to a certain point in life, my life was innocent. I've met friends who werent hypo and were true to themselves. And also, I've met friends who would willingly help me out when I was facing some trouble.. Now thinking that I've not met them , I felt kind of regret.. They were friends that I really were grateful to life and thanks them for showing me how far a friend can be..

I'm blessed to have this life. I'm lucky. No matter what situaton I can be, I always had some comfort. Regardless of material wealth and support.. Lucky to had genuine friendships (once).

That could explain perharps why I had ideals about what friendship meant to me.. Towards anyone I like, anything I like, I always gave my best and whole. To people that I truly regarded as friends, I gave my everything. Sharing you things with all my heart, treating you with utter respect I could ever give.. Because I knew that we couldnt be friends for long, I gave everything so that later in life, I wouldnt regret..Sad to say, it's really hard for a relationship to last.. I wouldnt treat anyone anything that I wouldnt want others to treat me like that.. So I adhere my principles.. Hoping it could somehow gain another genuine friend.. I'm someone who dare to like and hate, though I wouldnt want to put anyone awkward. I wanted to be someone who is true to myself, sleeping peacefully every night.. The only reason that could allow me to hate and stop regarding as a friend is when I discover you are not treating me as a friend anymore..

wait wait, why am I blogging this ? Well, I've been inactive very long.. It's nice to share something once in a while.. tmr night I'll blog again, haha because tmr I'm stepping down finally!!!

I'm hoping everything will goes well for me and my family, family to be always reunited!!

Once again,

thank you, my dear friends ! (if you happen to read this)