Ytd went to my room to clean up a bit. And I just opened a box that kept all those ('love'/emotional/) APPRECIATION letters from all my friends or ppl I've met (once)
They are letters from friends, thanking, reminding me of our unique memories we have of each other.. Letters from manitos.. Talking abt a common topic, encouraging each other through words though we nvr met before.. Even though she was the one always sitting beside me when having meals.. And letters from juniors, seniors encouraging me to go through.. Thanking me..
Argh.. Secondary sch life, full of warming letters, tears, friendship, heartaches, rivalry, books... And SMILES, laughters.

Call me old fashioned or what, I seem to relate better to letters.. They just didnt changed. I could read them anytime.. and the written words would just make me wonder... are their handwriting still like that?

Special appreciation-- for a friend that we just met 2/3 times and she was very good to me
Haha thanks Yi Jing, thanks for your letters/gift sent from woodlands.. a very long journey to reach here. thanks for writing encouraging words, quotes to keep me going and not losing faith ( though I lost some in the way here) and your cupcakes, straps.. THANKS. I didnt know we could just clicked like that.You're one I'm going to look to. You are very independent. I must follow that !

Life goes on and it's our decision whether we should grab this one to let her/him stay in our lives, reluctant to let her/him to walk out of our lives. I didnt have the courage to do that. And I felt miserable for days. Miserable for not boosting that courage to hold on to her/him. And now, I'm going to walk a big round to there when I could have walked a straight road there.
I havent declared a war/action, yet I'm feeling so sad as if I've lost that 70% war.
How am I supposed to suceed when my mind doesnt feel so?

Please, wish me the luck and strength to suceed tmr.
Please, let it be easy that I didnt have to do anyth and would get the same result.

GO JOEY!